You’re actually right on time…
If you feel like you’re forcing yourself to not “fall behind”, let this story inspire you.
WHILE in my world, time is an illusion, and whatever time DOES exist is Greek time…I'm still a conditioned little mermaid with legs barely pretending to be normal on Earth. I run slower than the “average person” and while I love that about myself, in the midst of it all, I get stuck in the feeling of “running behind” and the trying to force myself to do things, get things done, push through the tiredness...
(For your reference, I was also raised by multiple generations of alpha females, 2 single parents who were constantly working hard, one of which was also a Greek immigrant, so my conditioning to work tooth and nail CONSTANTLY goes so deep, and is exactly why I’m so passionate about my work helping people break these patterns in the subconscious…because well…it affects GENERATIONS)
Anyway, life has humbled me as she does, so I'm here to share a little story about how it has been proven to me once again that Divine timing is always best, so I can choose to force it and make it miserable when I'm feeling a mental or physical block, or I can choose to listen to my body completely and surrender to what I might not know (yet).
In July, I was invited to be featured in Shoutout HTX (for those of you who don't know, Houston, Texas is where I grew up!). This is a section within Voyage Houston, which is an organization that highlights local artists, creatives, and small businesses. They have interviewed some really inspiring people, and the Shoutout section is to hear from people they have interviewed in the past. I had the privilege to be featured in Voyage in 2019 initially. The finished article for Shoutout HTX is featured here, btw if you want to check it out!
A piece of the REAL story behind the finished product? In July, I returned to the US (from Greece) for 2 weeks because my sister got married in California. I got on a plane the next day to return to Athens for another wedding the following weekend, baptized my goddaughter in the mountains near Tripoli the weekend after that, and then was hosting a dear friend in Greece and visiting with family. It was a beautiful time of celebrations, and I was THRILLED to be invited for a feature, but creeping in the shadows of it all, my mental health was declining, along with my business, and anger in me was rising. And I felt like I couldn't really tell anyone. Plus, what were they going to do? I didn't need to bring them down with my inner problems (if you're also the black sheep, you know it often feels easier to struggle silently).
It felt like, “I've really worked this hard, for this many years, and after EVERYTHING, and all my work on myself…why is my business "failing?" And while trying to complete the interview in the midst of it all, it’s always been difficult to put into words the subconscious work I do. Do I talk about how I help people process emotions through the body through relationships and chronic illness, or my retreats? It's all the same work throughout but the topic is so vast, it’s tough to say “I help people live every aspect of their life better and more confidently”, while that still hardly scratches the surface of how deep we go.
Every time I tried to complete the interview, even WEEKS behind when I initially told them I would have it completed, nothing felt right. All my words felt flat, fake, and inauthentic.
What was REALLY happening was I was going deeper: in my work, in my psychic abilities, and how open and honest about who I am, what I do, and WHO I’m actually passionate about helping. I was one “one foot in, one foot out” with fully identifying as an oracle, and doubting if I even really had these gifts (when you grow up with them, you sort of feel like everyone must know, see, hear, and feel these things…until you realize they don't, and then you wonder if you've been making it up).
WELL. God said enough is enough, and over the last few months, my business started slowing down. And despite me ramping myself and my content output up, doubling down, investing in some of the best business coaches, releasing special offers, and everything I “should” be doing as a business owner to get back on track, Spirit knew I was fighting hard in a direction that no longer suited me. So I was forced to listen, when it felt like everything came to a complete stop, I got the overwhelming message to cancel all my retreats for the rest of the year, and let myself just tune into what I really needed and wanted. And the answer was clear - channel more. Use your gifts more. Be open about your abilities and God-given wisdom so you can HELP people in the way God has asked you to help them.
So I spent the next few weeks doing just that. I was on the island of Syros, one of my second homes and favorite places ever. This is also where I run all my retreats in Greece (thus far). I sleeping more, going to the beach daily (the nude beach at that - I’ve never felt so connected to God and the true nature of humanity. It was amazing), all the while becoming a product of my newest mini course ATTRACTIVE AF in 15 Days - 15 mins of energy work for 15 days, so I could be proof of my own work all over again. I really thought it would help me move through my funk, but as always, it was proven that TUNING INTO YOUR BODY WILL ALWAYS UNLOCK DEEPER WISDOM. It was a highly trippy experience, because while so many of my issues were taking TIME to resolve, and it felt like still nothing was working out in the physical, I was more sure of myself, my purpose, and my journey than ever before. I could feel God in every corner of my life, even when everything still felt a mess. I would ask for reassurance, say a prayer, set an intention, and it would be answered to me right then and there. For example, I asked my angels to let me know they were supporting me, and my landlord showed up minutes later telling me he was giong to discount my rent, AND brought me breakfast. I’ve truly never been so connected to euphoria, while also on the verge (*mostly* jokingly) of jumping off a Greek cliff.
One day near the ending of the 15 days, I felt so on fire for y mission and what I wanted to say. I simply sat down for one hour, and all the words practically fell from my fingertips, and it FINALLY hit what I wanted to portray, my values, and the magic of not only tuning into the human body, but LIVING your life, and it perfectly encompassed my work AND my retreats in one. And it was the first time I got to be publicly recognized as my newest embodiment and title of oracle and psychic medium. (like…she’s really out there like that. No turning back!)
Simply by doing 15 minutes of energy work every day for 15 days I realized, THANK GOD I didn’t complete the interview sooner. Thank God my words felt flat and weren’t “good enough” for weeks on end. What felt like a blockage was a necessary pause on what I needed to get clear all over again. Had I completed the interview in a “timely” manner, it would have been obsolete immediately.
I wasn’t failing or falling behind, I was just needing to re-establish connection with myself, and stop blocking and fighting myself. I wasn’t the problem…I was the wisdom, but I had to choose to listen. And when I did, I was in fact, right on time.
